Category: 4.0

Lost ²

Lost it! I’m caught in a rage
Like an animal locked in a cage
Now I look into the barrel of a gauge
BOOM!

Made me into the fool
Experimented on me like an animal
Turned me into a common criminal (criminal)
I lost it, but I gotta get with it
Motherfucker, now you’re gonna get it
I ain’t one that’ll sit and forget it

I got into a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I don’t know what I’m saying
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker, it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

I lost again!

Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Took my hopes, ya dug them and they splattered
Took my mind like it didn’t even matter
Entered a world that I didn’t belong
Thought I could take it, but I stayed too long
Thought I could handle it
Boy, was I wrong!

Fighting a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I’m not into playing
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
I Lost it!

I went to war with reality
That motherfucker he was waiting for me
I never thought this could happen to me-damn!
Down so low, but I can’t get no higher
When I was burning up you put wood in the fire
You ain’t nothing but a goddamn liar-liar!
Took all my strength now I tremble and drop
You got to be down to go over the top
Oh, God can’t you make this laughter stop?

Died in a war I could never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I lost it again
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Liar, killer! Lost again!
I lost it!
Murder, Killer! Hell I lost again!
No! No!

Cleanse me from your evil
You broke your promises!
What did I do to deserve this?
No one to save me from it!
Oh, Lord please have mercy
And now I’ve come to see it
Something’s gone wrong with me
I guess I got lost in reality
What’s that gone wrong with me?
I guess I got lost in reality
Hell I lost again!
Sure ain’t easy, hell I lost again!

been listening to this song, and globally to the full album, over and over for more than 15 years.
Watched this clip again recently and I realized that this song would probably not only relate to skating. That’s crazy how the lyrics depict harassment so well. The words are exactly those of a nightmare situation like those you can get at school, university or work when you come from different social backgrounds, and someone or a group of a$$h*les start developing full scale harassment frenzy right at you. You end up loosing your mind from the continuous and growing feelings of rage. Some people get suicide, or get to the extremes like hardcore skating or whatever, but in any way it ends up progressively destroying your life, exactly as the lyrics tell.

The Peach Blossom Spring


During the Taiyuan era of the Jin Dynasty there was a man of Wuling who made his living as a fisherman. Once while following a stream he forgot how far he had gone. He suddenly came to a grove of blossoming peach trees. It lined both banks for several hundred paces and included not a single other kind of tree. Petals of the dazzling and fragrant blossoms were falling everywhere in profusion. Thinking this place highly unusual, the fisherman advanced once again in wanting to see how far it went.

The peach trees stopped at the stream’s source, where the fisherman came to a mountain with a small opening through which it seemed he could see light. Leaving his boat, he entered the opening. At first it was so narrow that he could barely pass, but after advancing a short distance it suddenly opened up to reveal a broad, flat area with imposing houses, good fields, beautiful ponds, mulberry trees, bamboo, and the like. The fisherman saw paths extending among the fields in all directions, and could hear the sounds of chickens and dogs. Men and women working in the fields all wore clothing that looked like that of foreign lands. The elderly and children all seemed to be happy and enjoying themselves.

The people were amazed to see the fisherman, and they asked him from where he had come. He told them in detail, then the people invited him to their home, set out wine, butchered a chicken, and prepared a meal. Other villagers heard about the fisherman, and they all came to ask him questions. Then the villagers told him, “To avoid the chaos of war during the Qin Dynasty, our ancestors brought their families and villagers to this isolated place and never left it, so we’ve had no contact with the outside world.” They asked the fisherman what the present reign was. They were not even aware of the Han Dynasty, let alone the Wei and Jin. The fisherman told them everything he knew in great detail, and the villagers were amazed and heaved sighs. Then other villagers also invited the fisherman to their homes, where they gave him food and drink. After several days there, the fisherman bid farewell, at which time some villagers told him, “It’s not worth telling people on the outside about us.”

The fisherman exited through the opening, found his boat, and retraced his route while leaving markers to find this place again. Upon his arrival at the prefecture town he went to the prefect and told him what had happened. The prefect immediately sent a person to follow the fisherman and look for the trail markers, but they got lost and never found the way.

Liu Ziji of Nanyang was a person of noble character. When he heard this story he was happy and planned to visit the Shangri-la, but he died of illness before he could accomplish it. After that no one else ever looked for the place.