Lost ²

Lost it! I’m caught in a rage
Like an animal locked in a cage
Now I look into the barrel of a gauge
BOOM!

Made me into the fool
Experimented on me like an animal
Turned me into a common criminal (criminal)
I lost it, but I gotta get with it
Motherfucker, now you’re gonna get it
I ain’t one that’ll sit and forget it

I got into a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I don’t know what I’m saying
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker, it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

I lost again!

Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Took my hopes, ya dug them and they splattered
Took my mind like it didn’t even matter
Entered a world that I didn’t belong
Thought I could take it, but I stayed too long
Thought I could handle it
Boy, was I wrong!

Fighting a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I’m not into playing
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
I Lost it!

I went to war with reality
That motherfucker he was waiting for me
I never thought this could happen to me-damn!
Down so low, but I can’t get no higher
When I was burning up you put wood in the fire
You ain’t nothing but a goddamn liar-liar!
Took all my strength now I tremble and drop
You got to be down to go over the top
Oh, God can’t you make this laughter stop?

Died in a war I could never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I lost it again
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Liar, killer! Lost again!
I lost it!
Murder, Killer! Hell I lost again!
No! No!

Cleanse me from your evil
You broke your promises!
What did I do to deserve this?
No one to save me from it!
Oh, Lord please have mercy
And now I’ve come to see it
Something’s gone wrong with me
I guess I got lost in reality
What’s that gone wrong with me?
I guess I got lost in reality
Hell I lost again!
Sure ain’t easy, hell I lost again!

been listening to this song, and globally to the full album, over and over for more than 15 years.
Watched this clip again recently and I realized that this song would probably not only relate to skating. That’s crazy how the lyrics depict harassment so well. The words are exactly those of a nightmare situation like those you can get at school, university or work when you come from different social backgrounds, and someone or a group of a$$h*les start developing full scale harassment frenzy right at you. You end up loosing your mind from the continuous and growing feelings of rage. Some people get suicide, or get to the extremes like hardcore skating or whatever, but in any way it ends up progressively destroying your life, exactly as the lyrics tell.